i have so much to say

but i cant type it out.

i cant say it out.

i m bless with many friends around me.

the old and the new..

i never once forgotten the old in my life.

once awhile i would call or sms n say hi.

thinking back, it is nice to hear from the old fren once awhile too.

i m glad that many actually remember me..

i was touched by the fact that a fren whom i didnt meet for quite awhile..

would remember me in a way or another.

we arent close.

but yet we are close..

it sounds confusing..

but i know tat u know wat i meant.

i thank u for the camera shirt that u bought for me from hk..

though i m sorry i dunoe where it is..

i seriously cant find it.. but i swore i like tat shirt alot..

i thank u for the cute red shirt u bought for me from bkk..

its kinds tight.. but i m trying to lose weight to wear it..

i thank u for not minding that we both have the same shirt..

i thank u for remembering my bdae n got me sth..

though we do not meet up so much often..

but u know and i know..

we both do care for each other..

n yes like i say..

i m happy u remember me..

n i m sad that some others whom i care dun..

sometimes life is just about moving on...

benben once tell me i shld think for myself..

n stop putting others before me..

ben i know u are reading this..

if i could do it..

dan i wouldnt be upset that i have frenz forgotten abt me........

because i care for each n every individual..

no matter how they hurt me..

no matter how they treat me..

maybe like wat jamie dear had said..

"y do u like to treat pple who dun treat u good so nice.."

maybe like wat one of my fren saod..

"is she worth it??"

i asked myself..

i told myself becoz to me..

everyone is worth it in a way or another..