It is like 0130hrs now and i m still wide awake. Lying on my bed, typing all the words that came into my mind and giving up on CLEANING up my room..
Seriously I thought of completing cleaning and packing my room by today however I didnt realised there were SO MUCH and I shall repeat SO MUCH to pack in my room itself okay. Ya i know it was like since last 2 sems ago I said I shall pack my room.. However I never really set myself a dateline to complete my task. And Ya I m kinda lazy to clean my room..Lolx..


MAHJONG
The past two days didnt have much happenings except on Sunday went over to Teow Hwee house to have Mahjong session with Kenneth, Louis and Bao Fa.. Well seriously you can see that they have enuff kakis le.. I m just a stand in and extra. lolx. Well at least the guys took turn to ask me play.. Hehe. Ordered Canadian Pizza.. Eventually it was like 12plus midnite le.. So we accompany Kenneth to walk over to his house that side and we took a cab from there. The cab fare cost us $23 lehz.. so ex wor.. From Pasir Ris --> Tamp --> Bedok --> Boon Keng..
Reach home bathe dan slp le..


Monday 29/05
Monday is usually a monday bluex i heard from many people.. Hmmm.. Maybe everyone was enjoying their weekends and they didnt want to end the party yet.. Or maybe they just drag their feets to school/work.


Nothing really happen much yesterday in school. Louis was on MC.. Jerry's back was pain.. Jerry Get Well Soon kk !!

Just another day in school doing my project. . so normal..

Reach home liao clean my room.. But seriously cant clear the never ending stuff in my room.. Decided to stop cleaning eventually..

Was chatting both online and chatting on the phone with my friend.. haha.. watch some video clips from youtube and i found there were Temasek Poly clips inside. Haha..
Guess finally around 5am i get myself to slp.. When I was slping peacefully my phone rang.. Thinking it was my alarm I wanted to set to another 10minutes to ring..
But to my dismay it was private number calling.. Not knowing who was it earli in the morning at 6plus and afraid was Emergency i picked up the call.. Arghhh... was Benjamin.. telling me he got robbed and he just left the hospital.. Eastshore hospital.. hmm..tinking how true it could be.. lolx.. coz either he is really lucky to survive after so many car accidents and so many mishaps always ending up in the hospital.. Or he is just simply a bastard who wants my sympathy and expects me to take care of him..
He called me just to ask if he can go up my house to slp.. First reaction NO!!! Hey my house is not refugee camp leh.. I mean cant u go home? Your girlfriend is at home waiting for you and there you are calling me..

After the phone calls I just went back to slp.. And coz I was tired I was almost late. Thanks to Michelle for doing funny stunts with me in the morning. Hehe..

28/05/06 0024hrs
There are just too much to update for the past two days.. well bear with me for the long entry okie.


26/05/06(friday)
CCN
After Charina's incident, I didnt have much time to update my blog as I was away from the lab most of the time( going back to my lab only after 4pm)

Well it was CCN Day and Charina allows us to have CCN break time from 2-4pm. So at around 1230hrs we went up to IFCCU to look for Ting, Cindy and Neo.. At around 1pm, Cindy, Ting, Han Wei, Louis, Edwin and myself went for a small tour around the school for the CCN day(we didnt go over to design school lahz). Well as usual it was packed with many people crowding around the food stalls the most. I believe mostly are friends who supporting their friends and doing their bits for the charity work. Well can say it is quite fun lahz. Alot of stuff to buy.. hehe.. Ended up i bought a keychain and a old school bottle coke.. hehe.. both a dollar each onli.

Went back to IFCCU after the tour.. Started to slacked in IFCCU for awhile.. Jerry and I was playing the fastest time to type from a-z(Game was intro by Cheryl)lolx.quite challenging.. will paste the link next time.. haha. At around 4plus we head back to our lab.. well we did something today i can say quite an achievement.. actually is Louis who did it lahz.. haha.. hmmm.. he can be quite good with his art oso. lolx.


After School
After clocking out, I went to meet my friend to pass something to her.. After that head to Tamp Challenger to look for Dawn and adeline at around 2030hrs. We crap alot lorz.. hehe.. Went to KFC.. We change our seats twice... coz of the number of people who will be joining us in the later part..
Waited for the others to come than came HanWei followed by Neo dan Victor and last but not least our design big shot Elvin.. haha.. just kidding lah elvin.. haha..
So off we went to order our meals.. and yes i was the last to complete my meal.. haha.. Commited a sin to eat kfc and didnt do much work out.. hmmmm..


After eating our finger licking KFC food we head to Tamp. Mall to watch XMEN3(excluding ade and dawn.)Well i onli like the action parts onli lahz.. haha.. Went home after the show..



27/05/06(saturday)
Hair Cut
Today went to Capitol building with my mum to cut hair with my yi ma(my mum's sister) and miao juan. Well Miao Juan was hesitating for a long time if she wan to rebond or not.. Dan again she hesistated if she wanted to cut hair or not. Well outcome was she didnt do anything at all. lolx..

Mummy and Yi Ma both dyed their hair while i onli cut my hair.. hmmm.. as what miao said no much changes except shorter lorz.. hehe..
Spent 2hrs just to have my hair cut okay.. wow.. that was an awfully long time for miao to wait for me.. hehe..


Shopping ++ Window Shoppings
well after my long hair cut, we head towars Marina Square via CityLink. Saw a t-shirt which is quite cute and the price is quite reasonable so i bought it.. hehe..

Did a little window shoppings while walking towards CityLink.. Well both of us went to adidas shop, I went to look at shoes but dun haf:( while she went to look for shirt but dunoe which one:(
So off we went and continue our journey to Marina Square. hmm.. We walked around and walked ended up I bought a mobile accessories, a gift and a shirt..


Oh ya forget to add on that along the way we walked past the central area where they host events.. well saw the TCS actor and actress.. er the guy i cant recall his name dunoe what shu de if i m not wrong well the gal is dunoe what shi mei de.. lolx..


Yummy Yummy
@ around 1730hrs we head towards the hong kong cafe which serves yummy food.. seriously yummy. lolx.

I commited a sin today that is eating so much good food today.. lolx..
Imagine two gals onli, ordering Ha Gao(Tim sum), Carrot Cake, Fried Ma Tou, French Toast, Curry Chicken With Bread, Cheese Pork Chop Bake Spaggetti, 2 HK Famous Ice Milk Tea and our dessert!! 1 hour also cant finish dessert.. Mango ICE.. (pics will be loaded once i upload to my comp)

Well the food is just great.. the ice milk tea was very sweet but however it is very nice. the food over there cant take everyday if not sure will grow fat de. lolx. . Think will bring my frenz go there and try next time bahz.. hehe.. will try other food.

Miao and I left the place at around 2000hrs plus.. Hey it is not we ate slow lehz.. instead we ate at normal speed le.. But the Mango Ice was too huge for us 2 to finish.. we took around 1 hour and it is still not finish okay.. Really Really huge.. lolx..



After dinner we head back to minitoons to buy sth..
Went into TIMES bookstore to look at some horoscope books(sth that Miao and myself always do..)haha.. So there we were sitting there and reading some interesting and true facts about our life and our partner that we hope we will be with.. lolx. There was this book that caught my eyes: Good Sex starsigns

haha.. quite an interesting book that tell us about how we feel towards sex and how we should approach our sex partner. lolx. hmmm.. Lolx..
Miao and I from the start been telling each other hey this part so true about myself..That part is so accurate and oh you see this you see this.. read this part.. lolx..

Not about our sex life lahz.. oh pls.. dun exchange sex life in a bookstore like that mahz.. lolx..
Dan we crapped about alot of stuff.. lolx.. Quite fun lahz.. even though is just the two of us.. haha..


along the way we saw a guy owning a mobile accessories which was OMG!! look at that it is so cute!! lolx.. is a baby pacifier with the radiation detector.. Went to Action City to look for it however it was the last piece that the boy had bought.. so left contact number behind and asked them to inform us once the stock arrive.. hehe..


After the whole thing we just head to the bus-stop to wait for our bus..
A long and tiring day.. well tomolo or should i say later after i wake up i m going to pack my whole room!!! from my bookshelf to my wardrobe to my comp desk to my bed.. lolx.. and last but not least reformat my whole comp.. too many rubbish need to clear le..

Lab Happening
Well just before our break time today.. Charina came to our lab.. As usual the students in the lab was caught unaware. lolx. Louis warn Jerry and myself which help us to have sufficient time to close all the unwanted windows.. lolx.
Charina just walked around and catch pple playing games.. She catch Jimmy coz of his war craft's wallpaper. lolx. She went to click on his comp and suddenly she was calling out PeiXuan(Michelle's name).. Haiz.. After awhile heard a heated arguement between CY and Charina..
All people wants is respect but she dun earn most of the students respect.. I mean everyone is talking behind her.. Is talking behind pple's back call respecting the person? lolx. so much for the morning incident.. and today i relli unlucky!! got her to come my lab, was late... wat else for the rest of the day? lolx.

LATE
From the title i believe everyone will know that i'm late again. Seriously I didnt mean to be late( not that the other times i wish to be late lahz. ) Just that today woke up as usual, bathe, get dressed and went to the bus-stop. Was at the bus-stop at 0822hrs, usually there should be a bus coming around 0827hrs. However today I dunoe why the bus came at 0835hrs instead!! Though my bus journey usually take 20mins but seriously today maybe is just not my day!! There was a jam.. arhz.. Gino, Seng and myself, we 3 were late.. Could you imagine just that few minutes and it make a difference? Anyway was issue a verbal warning.. Last time to be late and next time if i m late i will be counted as invalid reason le.

25/05/06
Yesterday nothing much happened.
After school went to mit a few of my frenz and we had our dinner at TM!! yummy.. the korean mixed rice:p

After dinner we head to Night Safari!! Yeah~~ My first visit to Night Safari. Hehe. Well it was quite dark!! (Ya, i know if not how can be call the night safari rite?)
Anyway we took the tram to tour around coz it is really dark and afraid we might get lost. Lolx.
Eh.. Quite fortunate coz alot of animals were active and not hiding in their own cave. lolx. After the tram tour we went to walk awhile.. Dan we head to the animal night show.. Hey the otters are cute okie.. lolx.After the show we just head home.. haha..Today still got school mahz..

Anyway again to the zoo/night safari i was unable to see the slow loris.. haiz..
Basically i just like the slow loris.. I mean slow loris is just one the animals the i adore alot. It is just so adorable and mostly they are aslp!! hehe.

Now the time is 0010hrs which is Thursday morning le.. Well here a little update about yesterday happenings..

24 May 2006(Wednesday)

Morning(6plus and 7plus) i woke up a few time coz it is around time to prepare for school le mahz.. However my legs cramp can?? both legs leh.. so pain till i wanted to call out to daddy.. But thinking he, himself is not well so must as well stretch it myself.. Painful lor.. After my legs dun feel the pain le dan i went back to rest awhile.. Eventually i woke up around 745.. Kinda moody in the morning coz of leg cramps..(happened twice okay)

Head to school as usual.. Nothing happened much until 1130 we went to BB to look for the others. Well we didnt eat snake okay.. Just that we were going to the army camp to have a small tour..lolx. So off we went to the Singapore Ferry Terminal(if i m not wrong lahz..) Everyone felt a little bit cheated coz horz we thought going to local camp but we were heading to PULAU TEKONG lehz. So off we went with some other poly too..

Initially we were waiting at the waiting area together with Temasek Poly students and lecturers leh.. But thanks to Bao Fa!!we went to take the ferry together with SP.. haha..
The journey to the island was quite pleasent coz i got the window seat.. Looking out of the window and looking at the sea was quite...ermz.. nice.. i duno how to describe that feeling..

At Pulau Tekong

Firstly we head to a lecture hall first.. watching some video of the army life and the purpose of the army and their lifestyle.. Hey they got songs for their video esp. for the video de bahz i guess. lolx..

We went around like going to the IMT or was it MIT?hmmm.. anyway that is the place where they demostrate how to use the gun and we were given a chance to play with it.. Hey i got 5 trys okay.. and out of 5 i got 3 shot to the target horz.. lolx.. Unlike Bao Fa.. none.. haha.. Just joking lahz Bao Fa.. hehe.. Dan we went to visit their room.. Hmmm.. Jerry had tested their bed.. soft and nice to sit on.. haha. They also show us wat are the basic physical training.. Lolx.. our fit fit Edwin got a prize for doing pull ups for 16times.. They also show us what the army guys will get when they enroll into the army..
After visiting we head back to singapore.. still singapore feel so familiar.. unlike Pulau Tekong where it look like chalet.. lolx.

Back In Spore
When we return to S'pore.. Louis, BaoFa and myself went to expo thinking that the food fair is open le but to our disappointment it is not.. hmmmm. so we head back to tamp instead to meet up with Hanwei and Elvin.. both of them want to cut their hair.. well i waiting for my mum to go with me.. lol.. We went to PastaMania and ate.. Got myself Bacon Aglio plus a combo which consist of drinks and garlic bread.. bery full le.. but however Louis and I share pizza oso.. lolx.. haha.. Elvin and Hanwei went off earli coz they head to Kimage to cut their hair.. BaoFa, Louis and I head to the arcade though there isnt any games for me to play.. So was watching BaoFa and Louis playing Daytona.. Well the arcade seriously need to replace their machines le..coz all machines sure got a little fault.. They played 4 times and each time is Louis defeating BaoFa and each time BaoFa say coz of this and play again.. lolx..

After that we head to Pavilion.. Wanted to find Miao Miao lahz but she was eating with wayne and his prents.. so didnt disturb.. There i was sitting at pavillion playing with my handphone game-- Bejewled.. hehe.. addicted le..

Soon later Elvin and HanWei appear and yes both cut their hair le.. Elvin look super different after his new haircut..lolx..So there was 2 tables playing and we were talking craps all along.. haha. so fun.

After playing pool(for the guys lahz not me), again we head back to tm arcade.. lolx.. meet miaojuan and wayne oso.. so we all went to arcade together.. Played games with miao juan.. lolx.. sorry ar.. i m short sighted i think.. only can see things from far..

After the arcade, Elvin, Hanwei, Baofa, Louis and myself head home coz next day need to wake up earli oso.. lolx.. anyway along the way there was this uncle been pinned down by 2 middleage men.. Shoutings were heard. however nobody called the police.. Haiz..

took cab with Hanwei and louis.. Okay here come the part.. My right head hit the cab while i was entering okay... Damn pain lorz.. the knock was loud lehz..(THUD).. Louis help me to massage my head and it was damn pain till my tears roll down lorz.. hai.

Well okay lahz i think i need to go le.. very tired le..

Today after school went to RevenueHouse for some job briefing.. Damn tired sia.. After listening to the boring briefing I went to meet Gino and YongSeng.. Both of them ride their bicycles from home to Toa Payoh.. After that we went to Toa Payoh Entertainment Long John Silver to meet Wei Shan..

She was with a frenz having dinner.. okok.. she ate her dinner at home so she is accompanying someone to haf dinner..lolx. We talk and laugh when we were eating.. Esp. when the part when a guy actually hit a chair..He turned around and apologised to the chair.. OUCH.. his leg was pain lahz, BUT dun think it affect his brain till he need to say sorry to a CHAIR bahz??

Shan Shan and her friend went off earli so left Gino and Seng and myself only..
After awhile we decided that we should head somewhere else. Eventually decided to go EAST COAST.. YES EAST COAST..initally wanted to go with them very much.. But my shoes is heels, so when Seng "Dong Pang" me on his bicycle, the pointed front kinda obstruct Seng peddling..lolx.. So they suggest i take off my shoes.. I listen to their advice.. BIG MISTAKE.. When standing behind on the stand, and when Seng sped off and move down from the pavement my leg very pain sia.. This ended up Gino give up his slippers and let me wear.. Haha.. Thankx again Gino.. You always the one to make things right..lolx.
The ride was fun.. so carefree and dun haf to think about anything.. Everything just gone with the wind.. Throw away all the unhappiness and just enjoying the breeze.. How i wish i could go on like that forever..

The ride eventually passed by my house area so I decided to come home earlier coz really my attire really not suitable to go nite cycling lahz..lolx.

How i wish i can spread my wings out and fly towards somewhere without any worries and without any lies..

Why cant people be honest with their feelings? Why do we need to pretend? Isn't pretending very tiring? we pretend we like someone when we dun, we pretend we haf no feelings for someone when in actual fact we do, we pretend nothing happen when actually there are things which is so obvious, we pretend not to know anything when actually we know what is going on, we pretend we know everthing when we actually do not know the full details, we pretend we live a happy life when we are not.. We pretend we are so sad over some thing when the next day you forgotten that incident ever happened.. We pretend and pretend just to past by each day, just to think we can happily fool others.. but arent we lying to ourselves?? Why cant we just be ture to ourselves? Just for the sake of other pple happiness and we need to pretend? I really duno..

Sometime life is just so empty that I do not know where should I go to or who should I turn to. Many thinking I have lot of friends out there and whenever I need someone I will have a shoulder to turn to no matter where and when. But the fact is how many are the ones that I can pour my heart out to? Who can be the one who really understand what is going on and what is the situation? Who can be the one who will be there when I need them? Everyone leads their own busy life with work/study, personal commitment, friends and family.. Everyone are having their own problems and what are the chances of having a friend who is so carefree without any problems of their own?

At times I don't understand what other people are thinking.. However human beings just like their partner/buddies to know what they are thinking just by looking at their face.. But the fact is we are not you, how do you expect people to know what your mind is thinking at this instant? People do change over a period of time due to the surrounding, people around them and the things that happen to them.. I cant denied the fact that I myself had change.. change to better or worst I really dunno.. I can only say i see things differently now. Nobody wants a sad ending.

Been thinking if the world could be a better place to live in? If the sun will continue to shine and the rainbow behind the clouds? Some things can be prevent I'll try to prevent from now on.. No gals would want to cry for no reason, but this is gals.. Gals are created to cry for some reasons...

Beautiful Women
A little boy asked his mother :" Why are you crying?"

"Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said.
His mum just hugged him and said,:"And you never will"


Later the little boy asked his father,:"WHy does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.


The little boy grew up and became a man,still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God; and when God got on the phone.he asked:"God,why do women cry so easily?"


God said:" When i made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world;yet gentle enough to give comfort."
"I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up,and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining."
"I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances,even wher child has hurt her very badly"
"I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart"
"I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife,but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly"
"And FINALLY,i gave her a tear to shed.This is hers exlusively to use whenever it is needed"


"You see: THE BEAUTY OF A WOMAN IS NOT IN THE CLOTHES SHE WEARS,THE FIGURE THAT SHE CARRIES, OR THE WAY SHE COMBS HER HAIR;THE BEAUTY OF A WOMAN MUST BE SEEN IN HER EYES,BECAUSE THAT IS THE DOORWAY TO HER HEART, THE PLACE WHERE LOVE RESIDES."

Starting of the day..I'm kinda lazy to drag my feets out of the bed.. eventually i still managed to pul myself out of that comfortable bed..lol.. So off to prepare and everything..
My Daddy
Heard a news from my mum this morning...My dad fell down in the toilet again..(*Praying nothing happen to him)For those who don't know..my dad is suffering from mild stroke..This time round he didnt go to the hospital cause he say nothing serious..so mummy didnt bring him to the hospital..How stubborn can a man can be??especially an old man..Hopefully nothing happen to him..Coz it is not easy to go through all the hospital thingy again..esp. to see him lying on the bed with the hospital clothes and the man whom you know so well suddenly became some stranger..He from a fat and still i can say fat man became thinner and so haggard.Does a person really need to suffer so much??I really never understand the logic..And i doubt i will ever will..

19/05/06(Friday)
After clocking out,Winson and i actually head to the MRT station to meet ELVIN and Han Wei..Haha..So the 4 of us head to Bugis..We walked around Bugis for awhile..waiting for Neo to arrive dan settle for dinner..When Neo arrive,we head to Pasta Mania..HanWei ate a dessert strawberry de...but they concluded that it taste something like Mac's sundae.Doubt i will buy that next time.lolx.

After dinner we just head around bugis junction and bugis street..Bought 2 pairs of earring..haha..quite cheap lahz..2 pairs $2 onli..but i think its better to shop during the GREAT SINGAPORE SALES..which is today start if i m not wrong..After our window shopping we were going to head home.

While crossing the road, i saw a familiar figure..hmmm..did i see wrongly??She was alone leh..But it looks like her. But her hair seems to become shorter the last time i saw her..Hmmm..What make me confirm was SHAN SHAN coz of the skirt..haha.So kind hearted me went to accompany my dearest SHAN SHAN home.haha eventually we went to Karen's house void deck to talk cock for awhile..some catching up to do you know gal after you came back from CHINA!!! We chat till around maybe 1130 bahz dan i head home le..Too tired..coz d nite b4(thur) i got work..After washing up i just head to my bed!!

20/5/06(Sat)
Was supposed to go to Sentosa with the IFC pple..however i m just too tired to move out of my bed..And decided not to go instead..lol..Stay home and slp till noon time bahz..Basically was doing nothing on Saturday..Sorry Shan i cant pei you to go out coz my mum not home..and i need to wait for her to come home..Somehow i just feel it is nice to stay at home with no one at home..Nothing to do..No one to talk to..Facing the TV..Well that was what i did on saturday..

21/05/06(Sunday)
yesterday i can say was quite a early sunday work out for me..lol..Got ready and met Irene, Karen, YaoPing, Shan Shan, Eric, Ivan Thoo, MingLiang, Yong Da and Justin..We went for TheNewPaper Big Walk 2006.Though we onli complete our walk till Suntec city onli..haha.Which is ermz..about 5km mahz?or less dan that? haha.But it was quite fun overall lahz.and those cute dogs..haha..especially one dog, when i say :" HENG CUTE WOR!!!" it will just make a turn. haha.. Along the way we saw a guy who bring along 2 long sticks( till now we dunoe wat sticks are those) but we just know it is very outstanding..haha..

After the walk we head to MAC and have our breakfast!! Our that the whole gang walked around Suntec for awhile. lol. Went to arcade and wanted to get the stuff toy from the machine..haiz. anyway didnt manage to get it..
After arcade is head to KBOX..lolx.Fun n Fun n more Fun.. alot of laughters.. haha..But sadly to say i need to leave earlier coz i was meeting another frenz of mine for dinner..
Well that day i can say was just an eventful day.
haha..i did enjoy myself that day..Thank you for spending time with me..

Feelings
Many things haf been bothering me over the weeks..my parents.. my personal probs.. my frenz..
There are things which i try not to think and all i ever do is to pray..coz there are things which are beyond my control..I need to look for more weekend jobs i guess to help mummy to lighten her burdens..
Personal probs..trying hard not to think..but still it cant seem to go away..Promises are meant to be kept..n i do hope it wun be empty promises..I'll keep mine..Just let me live in my fantasy world for awhile more..and not to wake up from it..pls..

okay a little thing that i would like to add on that i really cant see eye to eye..though names wun be mention in this post and those who know me well enuff will know who i am talking about.Please do not make baseless assumption as ASSUMPTION IS THE MOTHER OF ALL FUCKED UP..but if u think u r the one than please go do some self reflection..

In my yesterday post i believed i did touch a bit on this particular topic..but there are things which really hit a limit..People just can be such a hypocrite and doing things behind other back..Hey please before you are talking about other people please look at your own behaviour first..You are not the innocent person i used to know..but i think you becoming a LITTLE on the slut side..really..and i m not the only person who are saying this..

If you are jealous about other people happiness or their gifted talents than please face the music..Everyone has their own talent..yours may be another field..

you may look plain jane to any guys at first sight but your behaviour may give other the wrong signal..and i would like to warn you that fire is not good to play with..Be careful if you get burnt.
Sometime other people also need some privacy of their own.Sometime it is not very good to poke your nose to somebody else's every single bit of their life..

Sometime when you pretend to be innocent but somehow or rather your great acting skills had been exposed..Sometime when you do things are really too much..you are just simply taking your friends for granted..you think you did no wrong..because you are always the person who cried for help before the victim even say anything..and that is wat really pissed me off..

Sometime there are things you do i will set myself thinking if you are really that innocent or you have other motives up in your sleeves?I really set myself thinking if i will ever treat you like the way i did before these incidents take place..or my prejudices against you will just increase??
Ignorance is a bliss i agree with that..i rather dun wan to know so much of you..but there is just too much things that is going around concerning you..Coz you are just another attention seeker(esp. to guys) and believe me..there are guys who find it irritating..

Ps: I know i dun look really that pretty nor intelligent nor well liked by others nor so innocent looking or simply like you..But i know one thing..at least i dun back stabbed my friend or do something for a motive..I dun like means i dun like..call it stubborn if you want..but hey your personality is no better than those people that you told me about when you first know me..coz you are one of the hypocrites too..

End of my add ons.....

Gino!!! Mission Impossible 5 completed!! lol.. i managed to clock in in time okie..hehe..

Journey to work
Okay okay well a little update after school for yesterday..
Went to clock out and met Zac outside the clocking area(waiting area)..Haf to meet up with Zac coz Zac is doing us a favour to drive us(Teow Hwee,Bao Fa,Sharene,JunMing and myself) to our work place.Well..obviously the gals who is wearing skirt need to sit in the front seat rite since it is a van..but the smarty Teow Hwee actually tot of sitting in the front..omg..wat were u thinking during that point man..So off we go to Raffles Hotel..ok for the benefits for those who don't know what i was working yesterday..Well was working for an event company and they are managing the Casino event!! yes Casino..so it is a private function..

At Work
When we reach there we did our job and Jacky distribute our job scope for everyone, I was in charge of the shake dice that thingy..so i all i need to do is to shake the dice in a container(where you see in those gambling show)..than they place their chips on wherever place they want on the table and after i ring the bell i will open the cover and viola..haha..I can say quite fun lahz..coz alot of interesting and friendly pple there(esp. the caucasian guys..okay those guys are friendly and cute plus there are a few**i should say many haha** handsome guys over there..After the whole event which is around 1230-1am le bahz..

After Work
And as some know that i have already been late for the third time and had been given a verbal warning not to be late anymore, decided to stay over at my grandfather's house..ok ok..ya ya i know my grandfather had passed away for around er.. 6yrs now..but my ah fat uncle is still there mahz..haha..so i went over and slp together with his daughter...haha.. that is why i won't be late today!! hehe..

Feelings
I used to believe in fairy tales alot.. I mean which gal dun?? Who dun wish to have a happily ever after story in their life? How many gals actually manage to get the happily ever after ending? Sometime i just wish to live on in my fantasy world where I could be happy everyday..But some things just hold me back and not moving on. I'm working hard towards my fairy tale ending and i do hope it will come true one day. Cinderalla did gone through alot of hard work didn't she? and she got her happy ending in the end... I don't know if SHE was just randomly picked or this is the reason why Cinderalla was mentioned.. But hard works does pays off isn't it? I am going to believe in fairy tales ending for the last time..If it is not going to work out than i will just have to admit to my life and continue that this world is never fair and never beautiful..
I'm looking on the brighter side of my future..
*Praying hard..Dun let me lose my faith**

Yeah..today i m not late..well i really need to have determination not to be late le..Well a little blog of wat happened yesterday nite:P

After clocking out i went to meet Zac,Gino,Evelyn,Adeline,Dawn and Boon Siong..We head over to the stadium side..Hmmm..okok..must be strange y am i heading to the stadium..Hey i m fat k..so i think i need to really exercise for the better now..Went jogging with Zac,Gino and Boon Siong..Eve went home to bathe..and the other 2 gals wasnt feeling so well..(adeline get well soon okie)..during the jog my dearest Miao Juan called me..Hey gal it is not easy to answer the phone and jog at the same time wor..more over no ear piece..lol..asking me why am i panting..exercise lorz..what else will be doing??haha..Dan after that I played music using my hp..And that set Gino getting a little on the high side..lol..Anyway after jogging we head off to the gym..ok after exercise..we head off to east coast w/o Boon Siong..Yes..after exercise we went for a little feast..haha..all the efforts went down to waste..lol..while eating there were a little silly thing went on..puking!! yes puking..i dunoe who started it..but i know we were all luffing away quite loudly..haha..was quite fun lahz..dan Gino and I were trying to finish up the cockles that we bought..alot lehz..Thanks Gino for helping me to open the shell..lol..hehe..

After eating Zac actually send us home..but i chose to alight at my bus stop there so adeline can go home earlier to rest..Gino sent me home..hehe..thanks again Gino..

After reach home i had an argument with my 2nd brother coz of internet thingy..After tat i just locked myself away in the room..Feel like heading out..but dunoe to where also..ended up reading story book and fell aslp..

okay enuff of yesteday incident..there r things that are happening recently..and i really wish i dun bother..but sometimes things cant be taken for granted i guess.. I just think i hate hypocrites..If u r reading this and u think u r one of the hypocrites..dan go think again why must u mess up other pple life?or y cant u just be honest to yourself??Sometime i never understand and i never wish to assume..but somethings is just too obvious for some to see what is going on..while some just like to deny the fact..

Assumption is the mother of all fucked up..

Today i can say i m late..not that i want to be late..but is coz there is a broken down vehicle along the way which slow down the traffic.Gino if you are reading this,pls know my mission can be complete if not for the broken down car..I promise myself i m not going to be late anymore.No more late nights and no more laziness in the morning..

Came into the lab,and went over to ask Teow Hwee how he feeling!! But omg!! i saw something i shouldn't see..haha..TW it is not an excuse to be sick and you can walk around without doing the proper thing..haha..Those present will know what i am toking about..haha

Yesterday the new main comm for i.HUB had been selected..Congrats to those who had been selected. Well the existing main comm its time for us to pass over the baton.Haha..I know there are many of us who want to step down asap..haha..

After the meeting went to kfc with evelyn and adeline..We were talking about guys!!Guys!! and more GUYS..Plus some bitches..lol..After that went to look for cd that i want to buy..The album name:With Love.. Around our school area there isn't a CD shop hence i was deciding if i should go to interchange to buy..Adeline ask me to pass her a coin and she tossed it..result: Not known coz she drop the coin on the grass patch nearby and she was unable to find the coin..I kept on asking her to just leave it and not look for it..But she as stubborn as ever didnt give up looking for it..haha..Finally the bus is here so i said let just head to the interchange bahz..haha..SO eventually i managed to find the CD i wanted to purchase.

Well..For those who do not know..My project is yet to confirm though we only know we need to create flash game for PDA only..haha..Well..Pray hard i able to do it bahz..

For those out there who know my dad had suffer from mild stroke..Thanks my dad had been discharged long ago le..He able to walk around without any aid..So i believe should be recovering..though for the past few days i m kinda worry for him as his legs are swollen for what reason i do not know.And he is having difficulties passing motion and urinating..Coz of this reason my mum and i keep on persuading him to go see a doctor but he is just too stubborn and ensure us there is nothing wrong..

All i can say i just pray my dad will recover soon.. i dun want to face anymore setbacks anymore..Those who had been with me during my darkest moments and making them brighter i like to say a BIG THANK YOU..Esp To YOU and MIAO JUAN..THANKS..

Today is a brand new day!! n i do hope is a brand new start for everything..

First to start off i wanna congrats to April(my god-sister) for ur additional life that is coming around next week:p hehe.. oooohh..i m just so excited tat for you.. A baby boy!!

For the past weeks..my jealousy devil had been acting up on me..and i dunoe why..i really cant control it..But there is nothing i can do about this little devil within me..Hopefully this little devil could be tame and listen to me..

Why cant a person be honest?Is being honest so difficult?Sometime i m just doing some self searching to search for the person that i really know within me..Am i just lying to myself or am i just been dumb? I cant differentiate everything that i m seeing and hearing now..

4th week into SIP..n i m still waiting for my project confirmation..

This morning i was in a very good mood..seriously..coz i see all the babies cute faces which really brighten my day..How i wish i can be a small kid again where i don't face anymore problems and see all the hatred in the world..

Some people just know how to think they are always right..Never thinking why the outcome/results will be..Ever think before it takes 2 hands to clap? If you are in a foul mood,tell the other party..Do not becoz of your mood and blame others for your unhappiness..I'm sorry to say so but i really disappointed in you too coz you r just simply putting all your unhappiness onto someone joke..Both were just playing around..and where did it lead to?I'm not siding anyone over here but i m just stating the fact after you told me coz of other things which upset you..
Maybe i just never understand what you are really thinking..Ya one day i will know..if you never voice it out..nobody will ever know what you are thinking. We are not a cell which belongs in your body..You dont say it,nobody will know about it..

Will tears really solve the problems you are having?I've learnt..learnt how to let go..my heart still aches..but there is nothing that i can do to change the world around me.I ever ask a question:"If i were to die..would you miss me?" Seriously i feel that if i die..maybe i'll just be part of everyone memories..but life still need to go on.maybe some pple will just find it strange without me by their side but the most i give 3months to forget that i spent those time with any of you..

Really feel there are somethings that need to let go..and i m still learning..and i m still trying..i m giving up all hopes of having a wonderful life where no hatred exists..coz this is just life..Like what jerry asked me the other day: which do you think is right a) Greed is the root to all evil or b) money is the root to all evil..

I chose A..Greed is the root to all evil..coz the evilness might not be coz of money..but jealousy..
and there are many things out there that pple can be jealous of..

a little add on after my break time:
trying to tame the jealously devil within me.. Things will just change within time and things will not be the same again. Learn to accept other flaws and listen to what others had to say is what i m trying to change to. But please dun take me for granted..

To you: i meant well coz u always keep things to yourself..and u dun expect other pple to know u in a foul mood that day..pple will back off if they know u in a foul mood..or the least they can do is to cheer you up.. I've told you b4 the other day don't be too emotional and sensitive towards some things.. somehow or rather things will never be so beautiful outside this school life.. Coz if u dun learn than will never step out of the working life..

okay guys pls bear with mi for todae coz todae will be a long blog..coz i m going to start off with morning incidents b4 toking abt the show i watch yesterdae..

Todae i m late for the 2nd time.. hey i didnt mean to be late okay..coz sth happened at home hence i need to solve home prob first mahz..not as if i wish to be late..i woke up at 650am wor.so it is not possible i will be late coz i didnt need to pack my bag n bathe onli take up 20mins.aniwai when i reach clock in station was 906am..yup i know i will b late..wrote on my explanation form: Need to resolve family problems at home..hence miss the bus..
Waiting for ages to get my turn to see that Charina Khoo.She is alone todae..so no choice..when came to my turn she told mi:" this is the 2nd time u using this reason! coz u miss the bus"
"huh?" was my reply dan i said to her "I'm late today coz something happened at home which make mi miss my bus mahz.." She looked at me n sae okay ur reasons r accepted this time. dan i went off... I promise myself never will i going to be late ever again!!! NATALI if u reading this blog would u kindly get ur car car soon..Lol..

okay its long enuff for todae morning incident..

Yesterdae after school went to take bus to tamp with Han Wei,Neo,Louis,KRH,XinFu,BaoFa and Winson..as we need to wait for elvin to reach tamp at 7plus they decided to go pavillion to play pool first..BaoFa came along coz he tot we going to eat first..dan mi tot was since i m not playing pool dan i pei him to go eat lorz..he rejected the offer n sae some unkind words..(ps: would u go think abt urself first b4 u actualli sae others?)

Reach tamp le dan neo n i went to buy the movie tix for Poseidon..walked around tm for awhile..saw a Elle wallet reali reali wish to buy..cost $89 dollar or $79 i cant reali remb but mayb not now bahz..wait another mth or so bahz..Went back to pavillion to wait for elvin n meet up with the others..Finally Elvin reached and we head off to Ding Tai Fung to eat..w/o XinFu,KRH and Bao Fa..crap a little bit here n there dan Han Wei,Elvin and miself need to go watch the movie le..

Poseidon:
nice show to watch though the scenes r almost similar to Titanic..aniway the cruise ship is so OMG..when they shoot the film inside it dun look like a shopping mall or a hotel..WOW..believe they spent quite a sum on the movie bahz..there is a song in the show which is not bad..need to go search for it le..haha..

After the show went to mac donald..okay tis part i m going to cut short..Han Wei i dunoe how it will taste like if u reali put the fries in the tea..aniwai i think u need more coffee next time so u wun tink it is curry sauce..

okay now i need to go and do my stuff le..pardon me for the super long blog..

Start off with a fresh morning..but i m still feeling very tired!!! cant bring myself to get out of my bed till 750am(according to SIP clock).

Last nite went to tm to watch Mission Impossible with Natali,Shan,Lian and Samuel.Supposed to meet Samuel 6pm at TM..Though Nat n I was the nearest to TM but we were almost late if we didnt take a cab down..lol.. Hmmm. Went to eat at century square foodcourt after which we went to Pav. to play pool.. okay those who know me will know i dun play pool. I spent my time sitting there watching korean show. Haha..but didnt manage to watch finish the show and it was abt time to leave to meet Lian le..

Head to GV..went to the counter to buy some snacks..no i didnt purchase any but shan i dunoe wat got into her..hmmm..seriously till now i tink u wanted to eat PORK floss instead of CANDY floss..keep on saying wan to buy PORK floss lehz..GV how can sell pork stuff? Aniwai that not the main point.The movie was the main point.the show was not so bad and exciting..
After the movie went to the toilet n i think Lian ask Samuel what he said in the cinema earlier.. And Samuel asked who farted in the cinema..N should see the expression on Samuel's face damn funny lahz..

Head home to tired le so went off to bathe and slp.. hmm that abt it for yesterdae outing bahz..

K i thinki need to go do my work le.will blog when i m free:p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ii8fh120dls&search=final%20fantasy%208 ( the same song but i prefer this clip)

Okay okay i m back to blogging as promise to shan shan..
First of all welcome back to my bloggy world..

Now in SIP lab and i can say that i m slacking becoz i don't even know what my project need to do...

Been pondering for the last couple of days..Life is just so short.Don't even know when or why someone beside or near us will pass away. Saw a friend the other day while working and she told me her sister had passed away. My heart sank as i remembered i saw her the other day and now she is gone.. Is life so short? sometime i just wonder God haf bring their children back to his side so they do not need to suffer in this ugly world or is God punishing the evils??

My mood had not been very good for the past couple of days..Hopefully the rainbow will appear again after the rain..

K enuff of it i go makan le..


a video clip to enjoy:P http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kKRnhakjlbY&search=Long%20Distance
----Song was intro by louis..credit goes to him for introducing it to mi:>