A song that I like from the first time I hear from Elvin's mp3 player.. A song that reminds me of some one special..
Notice Me by NB Ridaz
Ohh I wanna let you know
That I'll always love you baby


Sometime I think about
Everything that we've been through
And I pray that you would jus open your eyes
I love you I need you
So please don't throw our love away


Since the day you and I snuck away to be aloneI knew from that night something special went on
It must have been the first kiss
You told me that no one else in the world made you feel this
I felt the same way too but nothing stays the same
I'm sorry for the tears I'm sorry for the pain
You were the one that always made things right
I promise you this though you got a friend for life
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets jus kiss and say goodbye
Cuz I really cant stand the pain of seeing you cry


I've given everything I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

All that's mine is yours that's what I said
Treat you with love and respect in everyway
You wanted I gave you need me I was there
Now you treat like if I'm not here
I love you and I need you don't wanna let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more I feel in dying inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?
I know I'm not prefect but I truly cared
So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there
Jus remember I loved you it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

I gave you my good and my bad
My heart and my soul, My trust my money my time,
What more can you ask from a man
Even when times are hard I held out my arms and held you
Even excepted you though whatever weather
But now I feel it we're at the end of the rope
Whatever we had now I gotta let go
Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall
To cover my tears
Wishing I could replace all those wasted years
Of loving someone who couldn't love me back
And now again I gotta start from scratch
But I know I've given you my everything

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

Now I'm in school writing my blog.. Yesh I know I should get on with my project however let me slack a little while more and I shall do my work later.. Seriously I'm TIRED.. Maybe insufficient slp bahz.. Well Updates for the past few days bahz..

23/6/06
Again was slacking in the lab, playing with zuma..It had been a long time since i played this game le.. hehe.. since it was a wet morning, my sandals' straps snapped.. So I need to buy new pair of slippers.. Asked Jimmy to drive me to central to get myself a new pair of heels..

Parked the car at TM, there was some sales going on.. so there I was looking at clothes.. while Louis saw some nice design t-shirts for himself.. And my job start from there.. lolx.. Searching for his size(the clothes were all not fold neatly,so messy) and found a shirt for Jimmy too.. lolx.. haha..
So the guys bought their shirt and we head for our lunch.. while waiting for our food to come, I went over to a shoes shop to get my heels.Quite a nice heels I think.. Kinda like it..

After Lunch, we went back to the car.. And Teow Hwee say wanna go somewhere to slack.. As Pavilion Pool close down.. We try our luck at Safra instead.. And yes there is a billard/pool over there at the 2nd story.. so there they(Jimmy,Louis,TeowHwee and Kenny Lee) were playing number balls.. Suddenly the guys said:"Joy you have to play..I dun care"
Excuse me..I mean I seriously dunoe how to play not even pool lorz. In the end, trying not to be a wet blanket I played.. of coz there was some lessons on how to play before that lahz.. haha.. Louis taught me how.. But seriously not very good lahz..

It was getting late, so we decided to head back to school.. Went back and waited for the time to pass.. Soon was time to clock out.. Met Dawn and both of us head down to work together.
The 2 of us was so silly okie.. took till 201 there and change bus..however we took the WRONG direction.. arhz.. eventually he took a cab down instead..
Quite tiring when working lorz.. When reach home, bathe and it was Zzzzzzzzzzzz time..

24/6/06
slept till around 9 plus and woke up le.. well Hamster was booking out today after his 2 weeks in the camp.. lolx. Went to meet hamster at around 130 like that, however he was LATE.. haha.. making me sit at the busstop waiting for u.. not pai seh ar? lolx. Pei him to Beach Road(was lost along the way.. lolx coz he not very sure where it is) to get his army stuff.. And poor hamster, the lady asked him what he want.. he told her and she went to get it dan asked anything else.. When he wanna open his mouth, the auntie went to attend to another customer.. Leaving us both there waiting for someone to serve..

After getting his stuff, we head to Popular(near Bugis there de) to get other of his stuff.. Soon it started to rain..so we were stranded there.. walking around the building to look at some interesting stuff.. When is was only drizzling, did we head to Bugis Junction.. I actually wanted to go to Marina Square de coz my Pacifier broke(too violent le) but Hamster said Bugis got Action City(true enuff)but however dun haf the purple de.. arh..
Soon was dinner time, he wanted to eat MacDonald.. okay lahz I can understand that army life dun haf fast food so pei him lorz.But Bugis was crowded so eventually we head down to Parkway for our dinner instead..

After dinner, I need to go work so we went our seperate ways..
Saturday Night was hell working man.. too many customers.. Kinda busy that night.. Was so tired working..

Reached home around 3plus,bathe and there I was talking to my friend on the phone till 6plus in the morning.. Ard 5plus, I smsed my classmates who wanna go east coast for cycling session..
Eventually 9plus everyone replied my sms which kinda disturbed by slp lahz.. haha..but it was okay lahz..

Sunday(25/6/06)
So went to meet Gino and head down to East Coast.. supposed to meet the rest at 330, however they were all late..first came HanWei, dan John and Louis(they cycled from Bedok to ECP) dan came Dawn..

start cycling at ard 5pm litat.. we head from one end dan to the food court.. We were talking craps at the food court.. And yesh Louis and John they both tell us some incidents that happened in their sec. school life which made us luff and luff.. soon was time to return the bicycles.. so Gino, Hanwei,John and Louis went to return our bikes, while Dawn and I sat at the food court there eating our fried oysters and talking..

When they return, we sat a little while more before moving off to the sea side.. enjoying the cool breeze.. it was kinda muddy.. so Louis "Dong Pang" Dawn over to the hut dan came back to "Dong Pang" me over..Dawn and myself did some stupid things lahz.. we went to play siccsior, paper stone.. Dawn and I was there luffing nonstop.. dan we went to play other games.. okay onli Dawn and myself was entertaining ourselves..

Gino's friend, Darryl join us at the small hut.. At that time Dawn and myself were enjoying the sea breeze and awhile later Louis wanna ride his bicycle to somewhere else.. So again he "Dong Pang" me... We head over to bedok jetty.. Was much more cooling and there were more stars(though was kinda cloudy lahz).. so called Dawn to meet us at the jetty instead. haha..

John "Dong Pang" Dawn over to the jetty, while Gino and Darryl went to have their dinner(Han Wei went home at that time le).. Dawn and I sat down and chat again.. About alot of things..lolx..
Dan Louis and John join us with our conversations and we were crapping away again..
Gino and Darryl came to meet us at the jetty after their dinner..
We left the jetty at around 11 litat.. Louis sent Dawn to the bus stop while John head home.. Gino, Darryl and myself walked to the busstop..Quite a distance.. Once on the bus, I fall aslp.. And thanks Gino for lending me ur shoulder to lean on.. And thanks again for walking me home again.. Reached home,bathe and went to bed le.. too tired le..

Guess that is all the updates for the past 3 days..
Tired Tired.. Sometime I really wish that I can occupied all my time working working and earning more money..
Now my working days are : Monday, Wed, Friday and Saturday at Mel's Place.. Sunday Astoria.. Tuesday Gym while thursdae is Badminton.. Whahaha.. Hopefully I can handle it..

Okay okay yesterday and today i had been slacking.. well i didnt really wanna slack de..however i feel very very tired..

I feel like going to kbox, however coz of my working commitment and the fact that i m in school everyday from 830-530 which make me unable to make it.. Shan Shan I know that I always work work work..but no choice lahz..unless u want to yang me lah..lolx.. I just realised that i only got 2 days for meeting up with my frenz and going out.. lolx.. besides being in school everyday.. Monday,Friday,Saturday I'm working at Mel's Place.Where is it? Well it is located at Kuo Chuan Ave(Upper East Coast Junction heading towards Katong, Opposite of Esso NTUC).. working there is not bad lahz.. However i yet to meet the gal that Dawn was telling me the other day..
Thursday shall be Badminton Day with my classmates.. Sunday sometimes got job.. So only left with Tuesday and Wednesday.. haha.. So my dear frenz u should know when to ask me out le okay..

Yesterday was watching the Channel 8,9pm show, I remembered one of the cast asked : Is human kind or evil by nature?
My first thought was: How we know when a person is evil or not? Only after knowing that they commited something wrong than we would know they are evil? I always believe everyone is kind by nature however due to many factors which turn them evil.. Such as Greed, jealousy, etc.. Maybe I need to go and do some self reflection and turn myself into a much better person.. hehe..The reply was : Everyone is kind by nature. However due to some factors which let them to make mistakes..
So my dear friends, go think about it.. Are you kind or are you evil? If you think you are evil, maybe it is time to revert back and be a kind and helpful soul.. Maybe by doing so there will be more peace in this world, there will be less hatred..

Thinking of the past.. Thinking of the people who came into my life before and left.. Thinking of the things which I did before, Thinking of the mistakes I had commited.. Thinking of everything.. Maybe it is just time for me to sort out my own feelings..

Today is kinda a wet morning to me..I knew it was raining outside but however I was kinda lazy and late to find an umbrella.. So there I was running across the blocks in the rain,getting myself wet..Well the bus was kinda slow today so I was kinda afraid that I'll be late.. Luckily wasnt late at all.. hehe.

16/06/2006
Well Friday was Lional's 21st Birthday.. As I did not get him a present yet, decided to head to Tampines Mall to get his present and also to have lunch.. So off we(Louis, Jerry, Winson, Edwin, HanWei,Victor, Jimmy,TeowHwee,Kenny and Neo)went to Tampines Mall.. We went to Aijisen to have our lunch..After our lunch, some of them accompanied me to buy the present.. Thanks Louis for helping me to choose the present:p
Head to Century Square as i need to return my book to the BookAffairs..Beside the shop was PohKim VCD shop.. lolx.. we stood outside the shop watching the mahjong show.. 打雀英雄传.. kinda funny.. And yes.. we agreed that we will buy that vcd than bring to chalet and watch.. haha..Was getting late so off we went back to school and do our project..

After school, went to Pasir Ris Interchange to meet LiJuan.. So off we went to take the bus to the Chalet.. And ya thanks to MengLih saying the bbq starts at 6pm.. Reached at 630pm at d BBQ pit there were like only 4 guys.. so thinking the others were upstair in the room, we decided to go up in the room.. However there was just another of Lional's frenz.. OMG.. so there was LiJuan and I in the room waiting for some other people that we know to come soon.. However to my surprise, a familiar face appeared at the door.. Was ShuZhu(primary school fren)..Wow..was like how many years back that i didnt see her liao..
Not long later, Meng Lih and Lilian(not my grp Lilian) arrived.. So there we were in the room talking about everything that is happening to our life.. lolx.. Soon they were cutting Birthday Cake le.. so we need to go down.. but b4 I go down I need to change to a shorts first mahz.. so I head to the toilet.. not knowing someone was inside and after asking if there were anyone inside..I wanted to turn the door knob than a guy suddenly open the door from inside.. I was so pai seh lorz..
The rest of the night was kinda tiring coz after cutting the cake and talking craps within our group.. We went out to have a light supper(coz not enuff food mahz)..
When we return to the bbq pit..We saw Lional drinking cans after cans of Tiger Beer.. And Yesh.. he was kinda drunk le.. He continued to drink as his other group of frenz kept on challenging him to drink.. SO we asked JiaYuan to bring Lional over to our table..There we were looking after Lional.. And ya.. we know that some of his frenz were kinda unhappy with us.. but too bad lahz.. Lional already dead drunk.. still want to push him further.. no use mahz..Eventually Lional was completely drunk so his cousin and frenz carried him up to the room.. After that was Meng Lih and I who started to nurse him..
So that was the night of the chalet.....

17/06/06(Saturday)
After our breakfast at BK, Meng Lih and I took a cab home.. I was too tired so I went to slp till quite late.. woke up around 5pm.. haha.. went to bathe dan went to meet han wei and wendy.. head to Marina Square.. Finally i bought the pacifier le.. hehe.. yeah..gt myself a purple one while bought one for Miao the pink one..
So walked around awhile..Than Wendy and Jonathan met up and soon they left to PS to watch their movie.
Not long later, Han Wei and I head down to PS too to meet Louis and Kenneth.. went to LJS to have our dinner and went to buy Hanwei's Daddy Day present..lolx..
Louis and Kenneth head towards Parklane to play game..while HanWei and I waited for Elvin..
finally Elvin arrived and we went to HanWei's house to watch the mahjong show.. hehe..
After the show was like 1plus am le..so HanWei drove me home..hehe..thanks for the ride:p

18/06/06(Sunday)
It is Daddy's Day today and it is also Gino Birthday..
First I like to wish my daddy Happy Fathers' Day.. I don't know why.. but i didnt wish my daddy yesterday.. I know it is Fathers' Day..but i just didnt wish him.. Dun ask me why..
Now is Gino's turn.. Happy birthday my friend.. hehe..
nothing to update much except slp the whole day at home..Yesh yesh i know i am a pig.. slp and slp onli.. got 3 pple sae I pig liao lehz.. sob sob..
And to someone.. just coz i work at a flower shop i became a flower gal.. Just coz i look after my frenz when he is drunk i became a nurse.. and just coz i slp the whole day i became a pig.. and coz of that i became a hybrid to u.. lolx..

Well kinda need to do other things le.. Blog later or tomolo bahz..

Somehow I feel something is seriously wrong.. I got the feelings but I do not know what is wrong..
For the past few days, I'm undergoing some hormones changes I guess. Or was it something which made me this way.. I cant find the answer to it..

Alot of things is running through my mind.. But when I think back, I do not know what I am thinking in the first place.. But I know all these things are causing me to have a serious mood swings.. So those whom I had attitude you for no reason please forgive me!! For those who keep on hearing me nagging, please forgive me too!!!

There is a little devil within me which make me think about alot of things.. Things had changed.. People had changed.. There is nothing I can do about it, I know that.. I just hate this feeling.. Am I undergoing depression? I don't know.. I just feel that Time is not enough, Money is not enough but there are so many things need to do and so many things need to buy..

Soon.. Very soon the devil within me will take control of me soon.. I can feel it.. I am still controlling it, not to let it out now.. If I could I will not let the devil out at all and tame it within me.. If I ever need to let it out.. I need the sandy beach where I can SCREAM and CRY at the same time.. If only I could.. Soon I am going to be insane.. I just hate it when it come to this point.. ARhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........

Monday 12/6

Monday after school, Zac drives Dawn and me down to our workplace(Mel's Place). Well the place kinda quiet when we went there coz it was like 6pm onli.. walked around to see where we can catch a bus home after our work.. Zac left us as he need to meet his frenz for dinner. Well left Dawn and myself.. @ ard 7pm we went to report for work.. Well i still cant remember the manager's name as he didnt self intro.. haha..

Went to change to our uniform than we went to attach to a senior waitress.. initially wasnt so busy. But at the later part of the evening the customer were all buzzing into the bar.. It's kinda a bar and bistro place lorz.. So kinda busy.. Dawn and myself need to stand on our own in the end.. Keep on asking the seniors which is which table.. It was kinda tired.. but it was fun also lahz.. Was supposed to work till 11pm but ended up worked till 1plus instead coz it was world cup.. So i asked Keith to fetch Dawn and me home.. Hehe.. Thanks Keith.

Tuesday 13/6
Its Zacky Bdae..Hehe.. Hope my dearest Zac will stay happy always okie..
It just another day in school..Poor Dawn was tired and i saw her slping coz of the previous nite turning in late..
After school went to Bedok with Louis.. Than went dinner @ long john silver with Elaine.. We were talking till around 10pm.. dan I went up to Louis's place to see hamsters.. Haha.. They were so adorable.. one keep on running on the wheel while the other one keep on hiding in the small house.. Didnt stay for long coz was kinda late so i need to head home..

Along the way home.. i suddenly thought alot of things.. The people that were all closed to me before.. My frenz, my family and my grandpa.. well kinda weird to say.. I miss my grandpa alot.. I dunoe why.. coz maybe my parents didnt bring me to pray after he passed away 6yrs ago.. Dan it suddenly struck me that it was my grandpa 6yrs anniversary.. I reached home.. Asked my mum, she gave me a very shocked look and said she dun remember.. I was like somehow upset..coz when I was young it was my grandpa who dote on me alot.. But due to some reasons, the few yrs before my grandpa passed away, I didnt get to visit him not even during CNY..

The good thing is my closest friends are all slowly coming back to me.. JunHao and Janice.. After few years not contacting they are finally back.. And it is still the same old them.. haha..

14/6 Wednesday
Today came to school, wasnt late lah.. but Michelle, one of the admin staff.. told me Charina was looking for me.. Well obviously coz of my skirt liao mahz.. So Charina was like saying y am i wearing hippster.. she said the rule was no hippster allowed.. I was like telling her back that she say as long as we dun exposed anything can le mahz.. dan her replied was she didnt say such things but state that no hippster and no short skirts.. After a few reasonings with her, she still say i break the rules and want me to hang over my matric card to Michelle.. LL so i hand over my matric card.. Than around 10am, Michelle asked me to take back my matric card.. Hehe.. Luckily Michelle didnt issue me warning letter..

Came back to lab.. Than thanks to Louis and Teow Hwee I got Big Mac to eat.. haha.. Thank you very much.. Now back to work le.. Blog later maybe..

Over the weekends, I spent my days at Marine Parade.. Hmmm..

Saturday I woke up quite early, preparing myself to go cycling at EastCoastPark.. Well.. Was supposed to meet Gino 2pm @ d busstop.. However i wasnt ready, Hehe.. So Gino went to TM himself instead. Sorry ar Gino.. The weather look threatening too.. However when i reached ECP @ around 330.. waited for the rest to arrive.. Dawn came first followed by HanWei, Louis and BaoFa than Gino came last.. After talking craps for awhile at the MAC.. We went to rent our bicycles.. well.. not all was riding a bicycle lah.. Gino went to rent blades instead.. Haha.. So off we went to enjoy the nice weather.. Had a lot of fun.. Hehe.. Seriously I didnt think I had so much fun in the past.. Coz there are alot of restrictions due to someone I need to accompany and all.. Promising me cycling and badminton till dunoe where.. I think it is still better off alone..
Head off to Bedok Jetty.. Along the way we saw the wake-boarding place.. All was so beautiful..
We ride to a certain distance and after which we u-turn back, was going to return our bicycles when it started to drizzling.. lolx. We cycled all the way back while Gino just hold on to Louis's bike.. haha..

After the ride, we just slack around at the Bike shop and have some ice cream plus was Photo-taking session.. haha.. yes I told HanWei to bring the camera along.. will post the pics tomolo:p

After everything we was going to have our dinner. Along the way, I piggy back Dawn.. haha.. no lah Dawn u not heavy at all.. hehe.. Gino and Dawn went off first as they got another prog on..hehe.. HanWei, Louis, BaoFa and myself head to ParkwayParade.. We went to Aijisen to have our dinner.. Haha.. Poor BaoFa got uclers.. so when eating the Volcano Ramen was kinda pain for him lahz.. Haha.. We went around shopping and i got myself a OP long sleeves shirt.. Hehe.. well the guys also got shop mah.. They bought clothes also.. We went to Royal sporting House.. I saw a Reebok Jacket.. i kinda like it alot.. the cost of the jacket was $79.80..after 30%discount is $55.86..Hmm..anybody wanna contribute and buy this Jacket for me?lolx..
the reebok jacket..

While walking around RSH.. Andy came down to find me after his work.. well he still look the same to me.. Haha.. No much changes.. still look cute to me:p hehe..

After shopping we head to the see-saw outside the Mac Donald..Louis and I both bought a ice-cream.. He got the wat ah gong's cone.. Look kinda cute lahz.. Shall see the picture tomolo okie.. Haha.. BaoFa did a very stupid thing..trying to balance himself on the rollers.. haha..saying now he know y does hamster like the wheels and such le.. haha.. Louis defeated him by staying on the rollers longer.. lolx.. Slacking for awhile we head off..

Oh ya forget to add that along the way to Parkway Parade.. We saw a car with carplate 3333 and further down there was an accident.. a Red Mazda 3 crush with the fence on the road.. CARPLATE NUMBER: 2222.. haha.. typical sporean.. see carplate number.. haha.. thanks gino was looking at the number.lolx.. luckily no one was hurt in that accident..

Well Sunday was suppose to be another day of cycling.. however the weather was not good.. so ended up we walked around the shopping mall instead.. Shan Shan baked cookies for us.. Haha. Thanks ar Shan Shan.. We went to Sakae Sushi to have our lunch.. Went to play arcade for awhile than they decided to head to play pool.. well awhile later i disappear from the Pool centre.. Haha.. Went to meet Louis.. To choose Hamsters.. hehe.. Yeah.. got 2 local breed hamster.. Well.. Like wat daniel say one of it was er, kinda pervert lahz.. but still it is cute.. haha.. Bought some stuff for the hamsters dan i went back to meet the gals(Lian, Miao, Shan and Natali).. Louis brought the hamsters and the stuff home.. Haha.. Thanks Buddy.. Now I can play with hamsters le.. haha..

So the gals head to Paradiz Centre and there we were at 北海道(JuJu) just beside the Tao's Rest. Lian,Miao,Shan and myself ordered the beef premiums while Karen and Joyce Lee ate the chicken..and Natali got Fish Platter..coz she was sick.. This time round we were smarter, coz we didnt order the spicy soup base.. lolx.. As usual there were lotsa of craps and jokes.. Haha..
After our dinner we head to TCC to slack.. and yes.. Photos!! haha.. Karen is like transferring picx to me now.. lolx..
the typical pose..
that is just me.. lolx..
Okay okay enuff of my picz.. Anyway after tat Joyce, Natali and myself took a cab home.. coz it was a SUNDAY NITE!!! you should know y lahz.. dunoe than pls crack your brain.. lolx..

Today is monday!! Today gonna start work with Dawn.. at a rest. call Mel's Place.. well not sure how the place will be like lahz.. but er.. hopefully everything turn out well.. Gonna work on Monday, Friday and Saturday.. Sunday I will just stick to Astoria.. haha..

Just now during Lunchtime, Jimmy drove us(TeowHwee, Kenny Lee, Louis and myself) to Safra.. well got a couple of bowling games there... lolx.. They played pool.. We haf our lunch than we came back to school le.. Now here I am.. Thinking what will my job be like later.. lolx..

Add Ons
okay after countless efforts of getting photos from Jeremy I finally got some pix for the delicious feast we had on Wed, and some photos for the Grad Day..
Cheesy Baked Rice.. hehe.. Miao ordered the chicken chop baked rice while the guys all ordered different meat rice..Cheesy sia..

Maggie Mee mahz? hmmm.. is HK style fried noodle..

Maggie Mee Soup.. haha.. Not Bad lehz..

Mee Sua with Fried Fish.. This was what i ordered..

Fried Carrot Cake.. Quite Delicious..

hmmm.. Carrot juice? Well is Watermelon juice.. Justin ordered it.

milo dinosaur anyone?
okay okay.. enuff of all the yummy food.. Now turn to pictures of human.. haha..
Me, Lian & Miao
Me with Lian(plus Miao's hand..haha)
Me_Lian_Miao_Karen
Irene & Me

Well finally here comes the dessert: Yummy Strawberry Ice..

D 5 Gals eating!!!

Well these are the photos for the Dinner.. Next time when free than upload the rest bahz.. Will upload abt the weekends activities tomolo.. hehe.. alot of things to write.. kinda lazy.. lolx..


Today is a wet morning, everyone was kinda not early today.. Wanted to take cab to my friend's place than to school.. However my area was hard to flag a cab. So asked him to take himself.. Almost trip and fall along the way when wanted to take cab, coz i applied the foot cream for my feet and was kinda slipperly.. luckily didnt fall.. If not so ma lu..

Yesterday went for Badminton session with Victor, Winson, Jerry, HanWei, Louis and Christopher.. Kinda tiring coz horz.. I'm a noob.. And Christopher kept on making me run from one end to the other end.. lolx. Ya i know will lose weight.. haha. After that went to have our dinner and finally took a cab home..

Dunoe is coz i m too tired or wat..but in the cab i felt pain in my eye and felt like puking..When i reached home, i told my mum and she told me she felt the same way too.. dunoe wat happened.. but still I went to bed early.. Not realising there are 5sms when i woke up around 3plus in the morning.. Its a habit for me to tok on the phone b4 i fell aslp.. No tok means middle of nite i will automatically wake up and check my phone.. lolx. well 2 smses from miew, 1 frm Zac telling me abt the job another from XZ telling me abt todae turf club sort of pple.. but i cant work mahz.. still got one more..hmmm who was it ar? i cant really recall lehz.. ermz.. lolx.. cant b bother too.. haha.. replied the smses and went back to slp.. well was slping soundly i guess, till i suddenly had a nitemare.. hmmm..consider nitemare bahz.. coz inside that bubble world i realised i was dead... i cant recall the whole thing..but i hope it wun turn out to be true.. i had a bad habit for my dreams.. whenever i dreamt of something.. it always has a link to my real life.. That why i hate to dream of bad things.. Coz it's always so true..It always happen in real life..
Just hate it so much..

07/06
well of coz it is not my graduation day lahz.. but somehow or rather i felt the atmosphere.. I seriously cant wait for the day to come.. haha. Another year to go(hopefully)..
SO there I was helping pple to take photos and of coz not fogetting to include myself in the photos itself..lolx..Well.. The last chance to take photos with those seniors who had graduates le mahz.. And moreover my dearest Miao Juan and Karen was involved.. Lolx..

After taking the pictures.. Went back to lab as usual.. eh..forgotten wat i did le lahz.. Nothing much to talk about lab incidents..

After clocking out, went to Pasir Ris to meet up with Miao Juan and Weian.. haha.. No choice, the poor guy need to book in.. after he left than Miao and myself was waiting for Lian to come.. We went to Whitesand and walk awhile and got myself a new pair of shoes.. well not really a shoes lahz..just that is not totally covered.. So my leg still got lots of space to breathe.. Bought some candies for todae.. haha..

We head to Suntec and went to find Karen, Irenen, Jeremy, Justin, YongDa, Ivan and MingLiang.. they were still at KBox than(of coz to look at the cute gal that was there lahz)..lolx. The 3 gals just roamed around Suntec for awhile to look for some finger food.. Walked and walked.. we decided to have Xin Wang Hong Kong cafe instead.. haha.. while waiting for the 7pple to finish their KBox, we order French Toast first.. haha.. each of us got one..
yummy French toast.. a layer of butter on the fried bread plus Honey..

See how thick is it? haha..

well we ate other things too.. Dishes photo are with jeremy coz we used his camera.. lolx.. yummy.. yummy..
well remembering the past incident where miao and I ate the mango ice with condensed milk till 1 hour also didnt eat finish? well.. we ate the strawberry ice yesterday with 5 gals there crushing the ice.. lolx..

haha.. Indeed it was better to have more pple eating.. lolx.. And this picture I totally got no ideal how Lian actually able to link it is a person in a bathtub and spreading his/her legs and hands out of the bathtub..
Haha.. When the bill comes.. it is the 5 gals ate $82 litat..while the 5 guys ate $75 litat.. lolx..

After our feast we head home le.. that the end of my day..lolx.. other pictures will be posted soon:p

arhhhhhhh... 2day is kinda a sweaty and rushing morning.. lolx.. No I didnt wake up late today neither did i spend time doing anything that is out of my routine today.. I woke up quite early today.. hehe.. first thing i did is i sms Miao : " Oh my god.. finally wo de nu er bi ye le.. sob sob.. haha."

okay lahz kinda lame for that..wat to do?? nothing to do mahz.. hehe.. Went to bathe, change and get out of my house.. was 8a.m according to my watch and tat watch is 10mins earlier..When inside the lift my phone rang and it was Miao Juan.. asking me wat am i doing and asked if i wanna take cab. Thinking since i m already out.. dan thinking she is ready to go any minute dan I went over lor.. Crossing the bridge under the scorching sun.. make me sweat.. telling her I'm on my way and can come down now.. However she wasnt ready and so up i went to her house and wait for her.. Her mum and sister was there saying her.. to hurry up..haha.. And till 840 like tat dan we left her house..so off we went taking a cab..and i was gonna be late.. d turning in outside the school there was like long Q lorz.. so we alight at the busstop and i have to run!!! Mission Impossible 6.. almost knock against dawn.. haha.. so there i was scanning my card and not really late lahz.. 9:00:10...lolx

What a morning I had!! haha.. Remembering Miao's sister even sae :" If you are late, blame miao juan" And I remember telling miao my explanation letter shall write:" Today my best friend graduate.. So I went to her house and wait for her.. to get ready and accompanying her to the destination"
Haha.. our reactions was like it sounds so like :" Today is my best fren's wedding.. So I went to her house and help her get dress and make up plus hair.. When ready we accompany her to the church to meet her GUY!! " lolx..

Yesterday
yesterday met up with my dearest Wendy,Elvin and Keith to TM.. Together with Louis and Han Wei.. Han Wei drove Keith's car and there was keith with elvin while wendy sat with me.. kinda squeeze though.. Louis was the fortunate guy who sat infront.. Went for dinner dan we went to chill at Starbucks..
Went home early yesterdae coz was kinda tired.. Took a cab home.. My back was giving me problem again.. D sudden sharp pain.. hmmm.. maybe it is normal bahz.. still I dun really bother.. waiting for someone's hamster to drag me to the doctor..haha..

Thank you
Was in a good mood since yesterday.. maybe that time of the month is over le bahz. haha. so not really that moody.. eh.. was kinda moody in the morning lahz.. Too many things that crowding in my mind..
I like to say thank you to someone.. No name mention though..
Thank you for always letting me smile when I cry.. You just never fail to make me smile from everything that was affecting my mood. Thank you very much.. Thank you for telling me what this life has for me.. Thank you for helping me whenever I fall. Thank you for everything.. Thank you for those words you told me in msn.. though you might had forgotten..
But still a beri BIG THANK YOU..

Yesterday after school went to meet up with Adeline, Evelyn, Dawn and Gino.. Hehe.. And my dearest kindest Gino help me to take my bag.. Again Thank You..

Head off to the gym.. Well along the way we crap alot and we sang songs(oldies).. Laughing all the way.. There weren't many people in the gym, maybe because it is the term test period.. Ran on the track mill( seriously i prefer jogging out on the track), cycling, and some other exercise.. After sweating out, of coz we need to bathe.. and adeline went to meet her sister..

After everything, I head off to Marina Square to find Miao and Lian.. We walked around the mall and looking at all d beautiful clothings hanging on the rack. Kinda like a few of it but saving money for some other things.. Not long later we head to Andersen's.. Haha.. Yes.. I commited my sins again. And that was my dinner.. Miao and Lian shared a COUPLE fondue, while i ordered a Andersen's Sundaes.. Yummy.. Lian & Miao both did stupid things with their fondue.. And seriously plus a few strands of white hair I believe you look like an auntie with decay tooth.. haha..

After the yummlicious ice cream.. there wasn't anywhere for us to go.. Thought of going home.. However we sat on the steps at Marina Square..Well I played some music and Lian and I was singing.. Kbox session soon I guess.. Hehe.. We were toking about some rubbish over there.. Than Miao did a stunt!! Her ear!! unbelievable but her ears got no bones!! i mean no the ear lobe leh.. the top part.. I mean do you see people folding their ears? and it is not pain anymore.. Can even tie her ears into half.. Hmmm.. And she even thought of going to the Guiniess World Record.. wow.. I mean how is it possible to enter to the world record so easily? Lolx.. Continue try harder okie.. It wasn't early so we thought of going off.. And someone wanted to go to the washroom.. So we head to ladies first.. dan to the bus-stop..
Eventually Miao got on her bus. Lian and I took another bus to my house there.. Hoping to catch the last bus for Lian and waited.. Eventually Lian took a cab home..

Things are not the same
Things are just not the same anymore.. When was the last time I really smile? I cant recall.. Remembering someone actually asked me.. Why your photos all dun smile de.. I try smiling.. But the smile is just not genuine enuff. Remembering someone asked me: why you always got problems.. always fan about something.. Is I think too much le mahz? Or the world is just like that?
Where were the days where we sit down and have a nice chat? Where we talked about everything?Maybe time for me to let go too? I hate the feeling of being outcasted.. I hate the feeling of being kept everything in the dark.. I hate the feeling of been alone.. I hate the feeling of doubting.. I hate the feeling of distance..

Sick
Sick Sick Sick.. Waiting for the doctor to come and see me.. Dun wish to spend anymore money on the doctors anymore.. They had earn enuff of my money.. Those who are reading this and keep on asking me to see a doctor, well like i said:" It'll be okay de"
Though I'm coughing away like those smokers who got lung cancer.. Dun worry okie.. Those my lungs feel the pain whenever I cough.. But i believe everything will be just fine.. Even if not fine, and if really i were to get whatever sickness you were telling me..(peunomia was it? not sure the spelling) pls remember when i go hospital.. I only wants SUNFLOWERS!!! no other flowers pls.. lolx.. Anyway I wun so easy go hospital de lahz.. Dun worry:p I still got a long way to go remember?

Well now the time is 1537hrs.. In the lab.. People always say that Monday is Monday Blues.. Maybe is because everyone just don't wish to get out of their comfortable bed. Well things from last friday till today!!! Long post again..

2/06/06 < Friday >
Seriously my mood wasn't really good that day.. Recalling back is because of some people who early morning gave me some attitude where I was just out of concern and asked what happened. Hey I wasn't the one offending you wor.. would I need you to scold me all the "NICE" words? Well believe those who read my previous blog will know how I felt that day..

Was tired after school.. But still went to meet my dearest gals( Miao, Shan, Nat, Lian) and Wayne.. Haha.. yeah.. Went to Aijisen to have our dinner. After dinner we went to NTUC to pei Shan to purchase some COOKIES ingredients.. Yet to eat the cookies yet.. Actually during that time I was already feeling quite unwell le.. But still stay on with the rest.. After which they went to arcade to have some games..
And the moody gal( thats me ) just stand outside.. Really totally no mood lehz.. sigh.. Went home after that..

3/06/06 < Saturdae >
Went to work at Kranji --> Turf Club.. Things was just like normal for work place.. Tired lorz..

After work went to meet d gals< Miao, Shan, Lian, Natali, Joyce Lee, Joyce Tiang, >, Yao Guang, Darius and Natali's cousin(theron--> dunoe how to spell lahz) @ PS.. walked around PS while waiting for the rest to finish their movie(X-Men 3).. Went over to Yoshinoya to have dinner after meeting them.. the service there really sucks.. throw my food on the tray.. damn..

Dinner over.. head to paradiz centre.. Went to play pool there.. (excluding me..) well some just wasn't in a mood to play than.. hey gal i know you will be reading my blog.. But please.. there are things can choose to ignore.. that what i learnt.. i learn to ignore his feelings.. A short while later.. I left and went to meet Louis for supper.. @ Tanah Merah.. hmmm.. first time eating tissue prata. really surprise it is nice.. hehe.. but come to think about it..since when louis will intro not tasty food to me..lolx..

Another day had passed..

04/06/06
Another day of work.. Well was late for work. So took a cab down.(XinZhang paid for it.. hehe..)so nice of u.. lolx.

anyway work was boring.. kinda tired.. eat and eat only.. Commit a sin by eating alot.. After work went to meet Shan Shan @ Orchard.. haha.. hitch a ride from Steven.. Hehe.. Thanks.. Went to walk around awhile than went to emerald point to have our dinner @ MOSBurger..

TODAY < 05/06/06>
today is just another day.. of doing nothing again.. a little lazy to do my work.. coz hor.. i really dunoe where to start.. pls teach me how to do it hao ma?

Louis went off for his doctor appointment le.. Haiz..

What i do today...
came to school as usual.. was being stopped by Michelle.. Gino just say: " Excuse Letter" lolx.. Well just because of my non cover shoe wear lahz.. hehe.. Dan share computer with Louis.. Check my emails.. break time.. eat.. tok to labtech.. read news of the alien head in a duck stomach.. dan read other interesting news.. dan watch videos.. dan break.. now blog..

Just now went to toilet.. Raining heavily.. dan i was saying to Adeline : " i wan to go jogging." dan the thunder just roar as if i said sth wrong.. hmmm..went to toilet..dan the lights just kept on flickering.. omg.. todae dun seems to be my day..

Feeling sth is missing from my life now.. not sure what issit.. but i'm sure i get it over soon.. some memories are nice to remember.. and i like to live in my fantasy world. Maybe one day the true prince charming will just sweep me with his magical power.. Will the day come???
I dunnoe..

First before i start to update abt yesterdae incident and todae vomiting blood incident i like to have a thank you speech first.


Thank You
Louis(if you are reading my blog lahz) , Thank you so much for helping me to fix my problematic computer. I know reformatting a computer supposedly to be smooth and error free however my computer gives out alot of error messages making you kinda pek chek.. I'm terribly sorry. Really sorry for letting you spend your time at my place to fix the computer and not having a proper dinner.. nor a proper sleep.. And making your back even worst for not having a proper chair to sit on.. And having to face my messy room.. And not for helping you in any ways as i m a computer noob.. After hours of struggling with my computers you finally made it.. Really appreciate your help.. I believe if someone else maybe they just ask me to bring to sim lim and repair it bahz.. Really Really thank you and Really Really Sorry..


Yesterday Happening
Well came to school as normal.. didnt late horz.. went to Clock in as usual.. Angelina told me to see her at 930am to submit my explanation form for my cover footware. So now i m officially excuse for wearing cover footware.

Came to lab.. Well nothing much happened also.. so didnt get much work done though.. for my side lahz.. i know the 2 guys(jerry and louis) have been working hard on it. Tea Break time haha.. I got Chwee Kueh to eat.. Thanks again..

Went out for lunch.. Went to Central Rest. to have our lunch.. well tried the durian fried rice.. the fragrance of the rice is durian but no taste of durian.. lolx.. Thanks for the lunch!! hehe..

After lunch head towards ntuc to purchase some tibits..haha..
Was raining cats and dogs when we were returning.. Thanks to jimmy he drove us to TM and drove us back to school. Thanks:p

The rest of the day just past by like that with me doing a tutorial on the starry nite.. haha..

After school is off to my place to fix my comp le..

Today 02/06/06
Today well just another day and it is friday.. What is my prog for later i m not sure lehz..

Today i m in ultra foul mood.. Yesh Vicky thanks for warning the others.. lolx..
The week of the month + not enuff sleep + stupid conversation + Feeling sick == Foul Mood...


Anyway enuff of my foul mood.. coz i m not living depending on my mood okie.. so here the story of what bao fa showed me.. it is so bian tai can?? http://www.8bm.com/diatribes/volume01/038/764.htm

I cant imagine how could a person be so sick in his mind to relieve himself in a squirting gun? okay lahz.. maybe it is some fetish(personal preference..)but doing it at kids? isnt it a little too much? Wun this incidents actually leave a bad memory for their childhood? okay or maybe they just think is water not thinking it will be semen bahz.. Coz it is kids after all how they know what is semen like? hmmm..


Congrats to Han Wei(Monday) and Neo(Today) for passing your driving tests :p
Think now only left with a few who haven't went for their driving tests yet or they do not want to go and learn.. Eg: Like ME!!
Haha..seriously i got a phobia to drive on the road.. I scare of hitting pple, vechicles.. If i panicked i know there will be road accidents.. And i will be the cause of the road hazzard.. lolx..

Yeah just now was talking to Gino and Zacky on msn.. well decided to go BANGKOK this coming Sep hols..plan for 3 days only.. 3days 2nites.. yippie.. shopping == $$ $$ == working for it!!!!!!
Well maybe will go for that rest. job that Zacky introduced.. hopefully can able to work lorz. hehe..

A Brand New Month!! How time past so quickly. Up till now i believe many things are not the same anymore. Things arent like last time coz everyone is busy with their own personal life. Working de will be working.. Schooling de will be schooling.. Partying de will still be partying..

When was the last time I actually really relax myself?? Where I actually leave all my worries in the sea?? There are many things that is happening to me.. Many things that I have to think about.. I really need some times at the beach.. Feeling the sea breeze, smelling the sea water smell, listening to the calm sea.. can i go to the beach again??