its 5am.

i woke up at 345am to have a drink.

the weather had been pretty cold.

my blankie had been sent off for washing..

how i miss my blankie.

i've finished reading eclipse.

n now i'm just waiting for breaking dawn to reach my hand..

and finish reading that book.

my bdae is in 3 days..

will b celebrating my bdae at o bar tml nite.

miting up with my gals on sundae for dinner.

n back to work on mondae.

trying to fix an appt for tat dae.

wonder if i could close any deal..

even if it is prushield i m happy..

i ought to be celebrating my bdae or take a break.. tat wat u said..

but no plans no prog no dates no appt.

i tinking if i would be stuck working in the office,.

oh well..

when things doesnt go so well,

all things will go unsmoothly too.

i pondered over the things i said to u..

was there a hidden meaning in between the words?

if no dan y did it hurt me so much?

maybe it had been awhile since

- u kiss me good nite

- u hugged me to bed

- assured me everything going to be alrite when i had a nitemare

- play uno/reversi

- we last watch tv in the living room

- u dished up sth yummy for me

- u covered the blankie for me when i m cold

maybe i just simply miss been near you..

u are not far..

always so close..

u stood by me no matter wat..

but y m i feeling u are so far..

so out of reach??