In another 13 days i will be turnin 21..
I didnt know how to celebrate my bdae.
My dearest mummy actually booked a chalet for me from 18 to 21st of Jan..

I dunoe how do i actually make use of the 4 days and 3 nites..
Since i have many different frenz..
And poly frenz alone is already about 50 plus pple..
I decided to put it on 2 different dates instead..
Maybe it is just basically me..
But i try my best to make the dates where pple will not tired themselves out..
Since Friday is a no school day for most of my poly frenz..
And sunday is a rest day for my frenz who are working or in the ns..
I decided to place my poly frenz on the 18 and 20th for my frenz..
19???
Well.. I leave it empty..
Waiting for pple to ask me out on the day itself..
Rejected a few invitations though..
Waiting for the right group of pple to ask me out instead..
Well i guess i can just drop the hope of that ideal..
On this bdae, i really wish my frenz would enjoy themselves..
So i try to be a hero??
To think of ways to deco my room and planned everything myself..
But now..
I just said hey i m cancelling the chalet..
No more celebration for it..
Those who I've smsed or asked u to come on the 18 or 20th well..
Just note that there wun be any celebrations..
A couple of my frenz ask me why..
I dunoe how to reply..
u told me i will regret not celebrating my 21st bdae..

Ya i know i have waited for this day for quite long..
And i m kinda excited about it..
But no point of celebrating with the pple i wish will be there not there..
Somehow or rather i feel that 2007 has not been going smoothly for me..
well i can say since last yr starting of the new school term..
With the unfinished SIP/MP project which i managed to complete it together with my grpmate before term break..
With different quizzes each week rather than everything on the week 4..
With more working days..
With more reports need to be handed in..
With more assignments..
With more projects..
And after 1 week of returning to school..
I m down with flu and fever..
But i still need to go work yesterdae..
Later?
Ya i m trying to finish up the report..and ppt..
dan go home and change and get ready for work...
sometimes i wonder is it really that i have seen it going to turn out this way..
Ya i did think it will turn out this way before..
but i just brushed it aside hoping u guys will understand..

working on more days is not an option for me..
I have no other choice if i still wish to have a roof over my head..
maybe everything is just at the wrong timing..
I have no one to blame but myself..
Yes baby gal, i know after u read this blog entry u will feel upset for me again..
I know u wan me to remain happy..
But i cant..
the watertap had been switched on since thursdae..

I m feeling emo..
with all this things and my illness and the presentations for next week..
it is just sucky..
DAMN SUCKY..
Overall conclusion: NO BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION
It is cancelled..