I used to tell people I hate this person I hate that person..

I dun like this person I dun like that person..

Hmmm..

It might be the same way to others..

Some people maybe also dun like me for some reasons or another..

I used to bother about if someone dislike me..

I always want to find out why..

But I learnt that it is beyond my control if a person dislike someone else..

I always think it will be so much better if there is no hatred in this world..

However I doubt that one day will come..

Sometimes there are people who will hear me talking about someone else or complaining about the other party..

But dun get me wrong..

I dun HATE them..

I just dislike what they did at the moment only..

But today..

I think I just want to say I HATE Me, Myself And I..

I HATE the world..

I HATE everything that is going around me..

Ya i m depressed..

Ya I m not happy with my life now..

Maybe not now..

Maybe from the day that I learnt to understand some things such as values,etc..

I always tell myself..

there are other people who are worst than me..

There are people out there who didnt even have a home..

There are people out there didnt even have a family..

There are people who didnt have the money to eat..

There are people who died early..

There are people who cant do alot of things that I can do..

But.............

I just simply hate myself for alot of things..

If back than I did study well for my exams..

Maybe now i m out in the working world..

And my life wun be so bad..

If i didnt insist on continuing to study in poly..

Maybe I wun have so many problems..

Maybe I wun have to worry so much about if tml I have a roof over my head or not..

There so much things that is happening..

There so much things i need to carry on my shoulder..

I only have right and left..

How many more things do i need to carry?

you told me that you will hate me if i m gonna do the disappearing acts..

but i really gonna be MIA soon..

Maybe just a break from everything..

Or just take it that i m sick and recovering my illness at home..

HAHA..

But it is just a thought only lahz..

I hate lonliness..

So i dun think i will play MIA game for a long time..

Or i maybe will skip it..