I dunoe why this couple of days i m feeling so moody..

Well..another 2 more days to go to a brand new year..

Time really past pretty fast..

I didnt expect it to end another year so fast..

I remembered a friend once told me on the bus: "Actually there are alot of people around you who loves you alot and dotes on you.. "

Thanks gal for reminding me that i m blessed with great friends around me..

Since everyone is giving their thank you speech maybe i should too..

Lolx.

Many thanks to the people who had walked in and out of my life.. and to those who had continue to stay in my life till today..

My family... no matter how much i dislike to go home coz of some reasons.. They are still my family who i love alot..

Without them and my relatives, maybe i cant survive in poly till today..

To my gals, you know who you guys are..

I still love you guys as ever..

No less but more love towards you gals..

I do miss you gals..

And seriously i mean it i miss you gals alot alot...

To Jerry,Victor,Hanwei,Elvin,Cindy,Huiting,Wendy,Edwin,Winson: Thanks for being my classmates for the past 2 and half yrs or more..

You guys had really add lotsa of spices in my life..

Without u guys maybe my time spent in poly will be a whole lot different..

Thanks Teow Hwee, Baofa, Jimmy, Kenneth, Kenny Lee for letting me have a chance to know you guys better..

Thanks Dawn, Eve, Adeline, Zac, Simin for letting me remember there are are other people out there who loves me too..

Thanks Gino for always accompanying me for late supper or lunch.. though u always fall aslp..

Thanks Sabrina, Edwina, Angela n Poh Suan.. you gals are fun loving..

Thanks Rayner, jonathan, Pok, Kenny Hung, Alex for knowing you guys of crappy guys=p

Thanks i.HUB 2005 main comm.. I miss the camps and events we host together.

With all the silly meetings we host at times..

Thanks Zhihui for being my secret lover.. lolx.. (ps: its no longer a secret and sarah gonna kill me)

Thanks Louis for being my best friend and listen to my complaints even late at night..

Thank you for always readily lending a helping hand when i need someone..

thank you people for letting me know that I m still surrounded with GREAT people..

Thank you all for letting my 2006 to be an eventful year..

Oh ya.. Thanks for the people at Mel's place for teaching so much things and loving me too=p

Hehe..

Thank you my friend, for lending me your shoulders when i need a pillar to lean on..

thank you for always letting me throw my temper to u..

Thank you for your understanding towards everything that is happening around me..

Thank you for being there for me..

Thank you for everything..

Even when i know i m blessed with so many people around me..

I cant help to feel the ache within me..

I cant help it..

Maybe this is just me..

The weakness in me..

She: From the beginning, everything was just for fun right?

He : Ya..

She : What about now? is everything still going on as it is for fun?

He: Is it a trick question?

She: No... Just answer me..

He: Did you see anything different from the beginning..

She: Not really.Just answer my question.. Is it for fun?

He : Ya.. It is still the same.. It is still for fun...

Maybe somethings.. are better kept unspoken..

Maybe everything was just a part of my dream..

I wish i can step out of the dream asap..

I'm falling deeper and deeper into my dream..

It seems like i m unable to find the light back and walk out of the dark hole..

2007 pls let it be a better year..

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I used to tell people I hate this person I hate that person..

I dun like this person I dun like that person..

Hmmm..

It might be the same way to others..

Some people maybe also dun like me for some reasons or another..

I used to bother about if someone dislike me..

I always want to find out why..

But I learnt that it is beyond my control if a person dislike someone else..

I always think it will be so much better if there is no hatred in this world..

However I doubt that one day will come..

Sometimes there are people who will hear me talking about someone else or complaining about the other party..

But dun get me wrong..

I dun HATE them..

I just dislike what they did at the moment only..

But today..

I think I just want to say I HATE Me, Myself And I..

I HATE the world..

I HATE everything that is going around me..

Ya i m depressed..

Ya I m not happy with my life now..

Maybe not now..

Maybe from the day that I learnt to understand some things such as values,etc..

I always tell myself..

there are other people who are worst than me..

There are people out there who didnt even have a home..

There are people out there didnt even have a family..

There are people who didnt have the money to eat..

There are people who died early..

There are people who cant do alot of things that I can do..

But.............

I just simply hate myself for alot of things..

If back than I did study well for my exams..

Maybe now i m out in the working world..

And my life wun be so bad..

If i didnt insist on continuing to study in poly..

Maybe I wun have so many problems..

Maybe I wun have to worry so much about if tml I have a roof over my head or not..

There so much things that is happening..

There so much things i need to carry on my shoulder..

I only have right and left..

How many more things do i need to carry?

you told me that you will hate me if i m gonna do the disappearing acts..

but i really gonna be MIA soon..

Maybe just a break from everything..

Or just take it that i m sick and recovering my illness at home..

HAHA..

But it is just a thought only lahz..

I hate lonliness..

So i dun think i will play MIA game for a long time..

Or i maybe will skip it..

PS: I pray that tml will be a better day..

I pray that everything will be alright..

I pray that I still have the roof over my head..

I pray that I still have that bread on my plate for my meals..

I miss you guys..

I'm sorry if you guys gonna hate me..

but I hope one day you will understand..

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Sometimes i wondered if the rainy seasons make ones more emotional?

I totally have no ideal..

Sometimes i wish that i could just cry like how the rain fell from the sky..

Silly me I guess.

another 3 days more and it is 2007...

Soon I m going back to school and face all the lecturers and schoolmates again..

Project are piling up..

I m trying my best to clear everything that I can..

But seriously I do not have the mood to do so..

I m just lazy..

Or coz I m just tired after working?

And my computer is down..

I have to make use of whatever resources I have to complete whatever I need to complete..

Sometime I just wish that we can fast forward everything and let everything be over soon..

How i wish everything was just a dream to me..

Or rather a nightmare to me..

I admit I m emo..

I'm sorry I tried not to cry.. but i failed..

I think I wasnt that strong after all..

The ache is just killing me each time I think of it...

But nevertheless thanks for lending me the shoulder to cry..

I know it was just a small little thing..

I should not cry till as if someone had died..

But I think it just hurt alot..

Somehow I think I m no longer who i used to be..

I m not as strong as before..

She: Am I Spoilt?

He : Yes

She : Am I unresonable?

He: Yes

She: Am I demanding?

He : Yes

I wrote a whole chunk of things..

Than to think back I just deleted it away..

I've turned to an unresonable, demanding spoilt BITCH..

I hate my life now..

I wish I wish I just wish that 2007 will be a better year for me..

I'm falling too quickly...

Way to fast..

And I dunoe how to pick myself up..

I seriously hate to work and school at the same time..

I want to stop..

But the letters to my home just keep coming..

How do i stop?

Why cant they just be sensible and stop everything?

Why is it always me?

Why do i need to be the one to hold everything together?

Why am i the one who have to make the contribution?

Just tell me when will the letters and bills ever stop coming?

just tell me when will all this ordeals end?

Just tell me when can I really smile like before again?

Just tell me..

I think enuff of ranting for now.. I better go get my work done..

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Soon its gonna be a brand new year..

I hope..I wish..I pray..

2007 will be a better year for me..

I never expect that people who I tot always know me well will thought that I didnt want to be with them on these special days..

If i could,I would be there..

But I cant...

I'm sorry...

23 Dec 2006 Saturdae

Xmas dinner was yummy at Swissotel that night..

thanks guys for making it enjoyable with all the craps..

Thanks alot for the Xmas present..

You are seriously my best friend=p

Thanks for lending me your camera..(you will think it was a huge mistake)

Thanks for the lift home..

Well.. pictures will be uploaded next week bahz..

24 Dec 2006 CHIRSTMAS EVE

went to work as usual..

Of coz without the uniforms lahz..

Customers were all coming in around 7plus..

It was raining that night..

So the garden area wasnt open..

It was packed that night..

With the regulars, with the people i didnt see before..

couples, friends and families all came to have a nice feast for themselves that night..

The band inside was blasting with great music..

Everyone was enjoying themselves..

Soon the count down began..

And yes..

We got the spray cans with us..

all the staff went over to Farid and sprayed it..

Yes i know the bar have the advantage of having water..

Eventually i got myself wet..

After work, everyone sat down and have our drinks..

everyone start to have their presents ready and start to give to others..

everyone opened their presents and were of coz happy coz everyone got what they wanted..

The only thing i have that is no use for me was an ashtray..

well can be a display item anyway..

Eventually xmas and new year i cant have my countdowns like any other years before..

Cant help to feel the ache..

I HATE MYSELF

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Every Year there are people who will ask me to join there for xmas celebration..

There are people that i have no choice but to turn down coz of work commitment..

There are people who knows that i m actually quite busy, tell me in way advance like one month before? so that i can be free on their special day..

My class and some other poly frenz will always celebrate on 23 of december.. Dun ask me why this date okie..My only reason is coz last year was also on the 23?

20 December 2006..

Dawn had told me way way before december that there will be this celebration..

Of coz I ddint want to give my words to her than yet coz I was afraid that there might be a function at my work place too..

Luckily my manager was kind enuff to let me off today..

We were suppose to have a gift exchange where all the gifts will have to be between $3-4..

So that do not meet the requirement of the game.. Well forfeit la of coz.. Lolx..

I woke up earli todae just coz i couldnt sleep well last nite.. I was watching " Wonderful Life" and I was actually wondering what should i wear for the xmas celebration..

I was kinda lazy and didnt want to get ready till the last minute.. After several alarms had went off from my phone and the disc of wonderful life had stop..I went to take my shower..

They group of pple staying at the east side suppose to meet up at 330pm at tamp mrt while i meet them at 4plus at orchard..

Lolx.. I was tempted to take a cab down..But luckily they were still on the way..

So I met up with Dawn,Zac,Evelyn,Simin and Ade at somerset station.

than we walked to HMV to meet Gino,Samantha and JunHong..

After checking out the buffet at sakae sushi..

We head down to funan IT MALL instead,,

Lolx..

So there we were waiting for the time to tick to 630pm when the staff can start to take our buffet orders..

Believe me we were starving by than..

So we really like alot of things lahz..

After eating alot and alot of food..

AT 745pm we got our stomach filled with lotsa of stuff..

So we got the gift exchanged..

well i got dawn's gift..

And it is a facial mask..haah price is $3.30

While eve got mine..

Hehe..

Most pple either give choco or handwash or stuff like that..

And yes Zac your present is the cutest where u bought from malaysia..

But sad to say urs is like RM6.45 and convert back to sing dollar is not within the amount we stated..lolx..

yes thanks alot for the drinks=p

The things we ordered was really alot which eventually we need to played the 7-up game..

haha..

Poor JunHong and Ade ate the most though their stomach was like going to burst..haha

After our dinner we head down to teoheng and ade went off with her bf first..

KTV session was great...

Fun and memorable day though..

Did alot of funny things.

where everyone just cant help to laugh..

Eve and dawn became model for the moment..

We took pictures with santa=p

people got molested(by our own frenz of coz)lolx..

Its been a long time i enjoy myself so much..

But still there are something that cant be replace with all this fun..

My gals.. i miss u guys..

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A month away from my bdae!!!

The words stabbed right thru my heart when I heard it..

I pretended nothing happen.

After all it was your thoughts that you shared with your friends.

You didnt know what he told me..

I was feeling hurt..

Deep down I feel like crying.

I wanted to leave the place..

But i put on a smile..

Yes it does hurt alot..

All along the smile was just a disguise from all..

The moment I said Good-bye, my eyes acted as the heart.. The tears was the blood that is bleeding in my heart..

I cant explain y it hurt so much..

I got home and i went out of my comfort nest again..

It was raining heavily outside..

I didnt care less..

You told me i will sure fall sick..

But i didnt care..

I walked in the rain in the middle of the nite..

The rain drops washed away the tears..

you told me that he was telling lies..

Coz he always twist and turn the words.

Ur reaction prove it all when you learnt the truth..

I couldnt care less about anything anymore

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Term Break for 2 Weeks..

But hell there are still work to do..

Well the above is to be settle within 2 weeks though i think there are a few lists that i have left out.

This year there isnt any countdown for me with my frenz for xmas and new year..
I need to work..

yes i m working till 2 am or even more..
How I miss my frenz..
Think I can only see them on my 21st bdae..
Term Test is over..
Term Break is here..
But what are the chances of going out to enjoy sia..
I wish everything will be over soon..

My birthday is about a month away.
Well cant wait to see the friends that I have not meet up for awhile now.
Can I have a wonderful 21st bdae?

After work on saturdae,
I was been a spoilt child again..
I dun wan to go home.. So went to meet louis and jimmy for supper..
Wanted to go to Jalan Kayu for Nasi Lemak..
Yes i have craving for Nasi Lemak for the past days..
Luckily on fridae Nite Farid treat the staff to Nasi Lemak after a hard work that nite..
So Jimmy came to pick Louis and me up..
We ended up going to Siplap( i dunoe how to spell)
Well..That was that shop that Zac bring Dawn and myself there before..
Luckily Louis know that place..
So we got our supper there..
I got tomyam chicken while the 2 guys got mee pattaya and nasi pattaya..
We had our talk cock session as usual..
And after that head down to east coast for a stroll..
Lolx..
How i miss walking down east coast..
how i miss it so much..

Silly me..
Been feeling emo recently..
I cant help it..
How i wish everything will just be over soon..
I need a pillar to cry pls..
Anyone out there can lend me your shoulder to cry?
I remembered a fren when i was in sec 2..
She went to my fav. hideout and found me crying there..
She didnt mind me crying on shoulders making her uniform wet..
And I told her: I dun wan ur shoulder..It is not as broad as his and u r not tall enuff..Not nice to cry on..
Her reply: Ta Ma De.. I so good lend you liao you still want to be choosy..
Haha..
those were the days..

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Term Break for 2 Weeks..

But hell there are still work to do..

Well the above is to be settle within 2 weeks though i think there are a few lists that i have left out.

This year there isnt any countdown for me with my frenz for xmas and new year..
I need to work..

My birthday is about a month away.
Well cant wait to see the friends that I have not meet up for awhile now.
Can I have a wonderful 21st bdae?

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Name:Joy Lim Gek Chen
D.O.B : 19/01/1986
Occupation : Prudential Financial Adviser
School:May Primary,
Bendemeer Secondary,
Temasek Polytechnic(Diploma In Info - Communication)

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