I cant help but to feel jealous..

I envy others who can concentrate on their studies and not work.

I envy those who got the time to meet up with their friends.

I envy those who can have what they wish/want.

I envy those who always got so many people to surround them.

Simply to say i m just jealous of people who are leading a better life than me now.

I'm jealous when my frenz meet up, but I cant..

I'm jealous..

I'm down on luck.

I know u had been trying hard to give ways to my stubborn attitude and my nonsense.

I know there are many times u really want to tell me off.

I know.. I know..

I cant help but to feel this way.

I cant help to feel jealous of others.

I cant help it..

Its true i m the type of person who work for wat i want.

I know where i am heading to.

I know what i m working for.

But i also want to enjoy my life..

I cant help to feel my eyes welling up with tears.

I cant help to feel frustrated.

I cant help to hate myself.

I cant help to be so negative in life.

I know you have advised me times and times again.

I know..

I know it cant be help(unless I strike 4D or have a sudden windfall)

How i wish someone out there, who is rich enuff to give me $2k now so i wun feel this way..

I dun mind to return back the $2k after i go out to the working society..

8 Dec is coming..

School Fee again..

How can i not think so much..

How can i help it?

Is the final semster..

I'm going crazy soon..

I wish it will be over soon.

Yeah i know it is another 3 more months to go(End of feb)

I know..

But tell me..

How can i cope with the nightlife and daytime study..

Not enuff to slp.

Not enuff to have time to study nor write notes.

After 2 weeks of break from my work place.

First day go back only..

And the next day i m sick..

You told me to continue to strive hard for what i want.

But how long more can i strive?

I saw the shoe the other day when we went to buy present.

I really wish to buy..

Cost $33.90..

You asked me to buy..

Ya..

I really wish i could buy it.

I really wish..

But..

I guess...

I have to wait for miracle..

I wish one day..

everything will be going my way..

I tried to be strong..

I tried not to cry

I tried not to feel the ache each time I see the pic of u and another gal..

I tried not to feel jealous.

I tried not to bother about you..

I tried..

I tried to make myself concentrate on myself and only myself..

I dont have much time to continue to bother about others..

It hurt to think this way..

But sometime it is not me who dont wish to look for my friends nor self entertainment..

But..

I guess i m just going towards to the isolate island till I've planted all the seeds and make it to a beautiful island..

My blog is not hard to comprehend my friend..